Category : Loss and Recovery

Blog post, Loss and Recovery, SHIFT Happens

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I think I finally figured it out…. or maybe not….

Life, the universe and everything ….. I haven’t quite figured that out yet but I am getting a handle on my new identity. I have been SHIFTing from Calgary to Edmonton for two years now. The SHIFT includes residence and business model as I move away from PULSE and toward Dr Nancy Love Inc. PULSE continues with the University of the Virgin Islands and I am happy to be working with them to renew that intellectual property and train trainers to continue the work. Meanwhile, back at the ranch, I am creating a new identity for myself as Dr. Nancy Love.

The new website www.drnancylove.com was created over a year ago but I haven’t paid it the kind of attention it truly needs. I do want to continue to promote work other than PULSE that I have generated and continue to generate. I also want to use it to maintain my connections with colleagues in the field as we collaborate.

I am finding that separating from your history is not as easy as you think. There are so many pieces, so many moving parts that even after two years I am still sorting and selecting and searching to eliminate what I don’t need and create the new and improved version of my life. I think we all do that everyday of our lives.

I am proud of my history and the opportunities it has afforded me. I am also proud of how that history has created new opportunities for me now at this later stage of my career. 2016 is on the horizon and I am already creating my list of expectations for myself and the WORK I love to do.

Okay …maybe I don’t have it all figured out yet but believe me I do continue to work on who I want to be when I grow up. Younger people may chuckle at that but those of you over fifty will know by now that this journey, this search, never ends no matter how many years you put behind you.

Off to see more of the World

This week I am heading for the Barbados. My friend and I will be “Yachting, not Cruising” the islands south of there. These islands are all new to me and I am excited about adding to my list of places I have been. I INTEND to post often from aboard the ship but I am not sure about what kind of connectivity we will have so as with many intentions it may not be within my power to fulfill this one.

It’s been a crazy week getting ready to go. Hallowe’en is a special day in our family. My mum and dad got married on Hallowe’en in 1952. It would have been their 62nd anniversary. It is another first of annual events without mum and it was difficult. I am not looking forward to Christmas this year because it will be the first Christmas without her as well. I know you have all lost love ones and know the pain and confusion that you experience as you celebrate holidays with someone missing. It is a shared human experience, I know, but it feels very personal right now.

My mum’s mum died on Christmas Eve when I was 9. No Christmas goes by with out my mother reminding us how long she has been gone. I guess that responsibility will fall to me as have many others since she passed away. It is interesting being the oldest female in your family. There seem to be a lot of responsibilities that fall to you.

Enough about Christmas. First to the sunshine and clear blue waters to learn more about Bajans. I can already feel the healing sun on my skin and the warm breezes soothing my soul. Although I do intend to Blog I do not intend to work on the book while I am away. If I get inspired fine but usually I leave with visions of chapters edited or sections written and then I come home with less achieved than I had planned and I beat myself up. That takes the joy out of the trip. I am giving myself permission to relax and enjoy the trip, leaving my internal task master behind. I think it comes from years of travelling to beautiful places all over the US and the Caribbean for work but I need a break and I intend to take it.

Nine islands with beaches …. hmmmm one for each Region in my new book about mapping the space between us. Maybe I will take a camera. Maybe there is no escape when you have chosen to be a writer. Seeing more of the world means that you have more world to write about … when you get home. Permission to relax and enjoy granted.